"I love you. I hope you go to sleep knowing that."
|—||What my relationships have taught me. (via lozzat)|
You are beautiful! You’ve come along way but sweetheart your journey has not even begun yet! Be the light in the darkness beautiful, because where there is light darkness cannot be. You are loved by so many, whether it feels it or not. I may not know you but I love you, you’ve come so far and in proud of you! For being here today
I remember being 7 and locking myself in the bathroom, closet or my room and crying, wishing to die, and asking God why i was here, to take my life because everyone would be happy without me, and won’t notice my existence.I’m almost 17, after 10 years, I still break down, sometimes i ask why i’m here, if i should die, isn’t is scary how young some of us are but are so ready to die, even tho death is what we fear? At night, is when i’m alone with my thoughts and I lose it, i cry.. sometimes I don’t even know the reason. I used to harm-self, i found art in the scars and blood, the pain felt good because it was the only pain i could control, but I came to realize that isn’t worth it, because at the end no problem is going to get solve. People say cheer up, be happy, you’re young, but they don’t understand depression, sadness can last a day or weeks, but depression last months and years, I’ve been like this since I was 7. I’ve tried to talk to my dad, but all he does is tell me that I’m crazy. I know I’m not crazy, but it still hurts to hear your own father call you that, i can’t talk to him about anything. My mom doesn’t live with us, she abandoned us when i was 4, i see her some days but she’s a stranger, we have no relationship. My sister and I talk, we hang but our relationship isn’t strong, i wish it was because sometimes i wish i could go to her for help, I know she won’t judge, she comes for me to help, but I can’t do the same because I’m not comfortable around her or anyone in my family, they’re all strangers.
Okay, so I normally answer this question with like a 2 minute sentence, but I feel you guys deserve a definitive answer so here we go.
Nicole and I met in 2011, how you may ask, where we met right here. Yup, right here on the same blue dashboard you’re likely reading this post on. We started talking and getting to know each other pretty well, so we moved over to facebook were our friendship escalated into something more.
Soon enough into our long distance relationship we started video chatting:
This went on for about 11 months until we would finally be able to be together.
This is me in an airport on my way to her for the first time:
It was probably the most terrifying moment of my life, personally, and I was incredibly nervous.
This is us on the car ride back to her house:
She was really shy about being in pictures, so naturally I tried to take 300.
Eventually she started giving in and took more pictures.
It was only a week, but it was the best week of my life.
Eventually we decided to start living together, I lived with her and her mom while I found a job in Michigan and made enough to get our own place.
Job hunting was fun
Not everything works out as planned though, and we ended up on the streets for 2 months trying to figure out what to do with our lives.
Looking pretty good for a homeless couple right?
When we realized things weren’t gonna work out in Michigan we decided to move to Florida with my family where things would be easier for us.
I found a job right away.
And eventually Nicole even joined the crew.
Things were going really well for us, so we decided to save every penny we had and give it a go in Michigan again. We found a place that we liked and we were happily awaiting to move in in 2 months.
Things took somewhat of a dramatic turn when Nicoles depression (which she had been battling for a major part of her life) kicked in and she made an attempt at taking her own life.
Unfortunately her family thought I was to blame for it, and since we were still living under their house while the place we wanted was available I had to go back to Florida to live with my family. We were separated for the first time in over a year.
BUT EVERYTHING CHANGED WHEN WE FOUND OUT NICOLE WAS PREGNANT
She dropped her life in Michigan and flew back to me ASAP
Our youtube channel and our blog had started to pick up a decent amount of followers, so when we asked for your help and put up a wishlist for Charlie things you guys did not disappoint.
Soon enough Nicoles belly started growing
Things had finally settled down, and we were able to enjoy ourselves for the first time, here’s the last Christmas we spent as a party of 2
Before we knew it February had rolled by and it was time for the baby.
And just like that we had conceived and brought a new life into this world.
As of May 2nd 2014 it’s been 3 months since Charlie was born.
She’s absolutely beautiful, and she’s become the center of our world. It’s been a long, hard, and sometimes stressful journey. It isn’t the most polished, or magical, or glamorous love story you will ever hear. But it is our love story, it is our journey, and we are grateful for every step of it we’ve been able to take side by side.
If you’re still following our blog after this huge post with our faces on it thank you so much, you’re awesome! <3
i”m so glad I follow them, they are my faves and I love their story. <3
oh my god can I just say how perfect they are and you should go follow them right now?
"Those people with stretched ears and tattoos are all bad news."
107,000 NOTES IS NOT ENOUGH.
i’ve reblogged this about 6 times. i’ll never not reblog this.
"And all guys who take AP classes and play sports are tasteful &great respectful young men"
Hey guys, this is my counselor.
About 2 months ago she had no idea what Tumblr or Warped Tour was.
So now, we made a deal. If this post gets 700,000 notes on Tumblr, she will “chaperone” my friends and I to Warped next year.
She doubts i can do this.
But you guys know what to do……
SIGNAL BOOST THIS IT’S FOR A GOOD CAUSE